Little update!

Hi all, sorry I haven’t been posting as much. 

First of all, most of the summer was a drag. Did spend two weeks with my mom and grandma though so that made up for the rest of the summer.

I am on the hunt for a job, so I’m trying to fill my time by looking at job postings online. It’s incredible the amount of people who require a license (which I don’t have). 

I can also say with like 95% certainty that my social anxiety stems from my speech problem as a child. I was born with a partial cleft palate, had surgery to fix it, but needed speech therapy. My mom did the best she could ( which by the way was a lot) for me but as a young kid I knew I was different than everyone else. But by the time I was 6 I was speaking as if there were no past speech problems. But that anxiety has always plagued me.

And that’s why a lot of the interactions I have with other people are so hard. It’s getting better now with age and growth but it’s still hard. It’s still hard communicating to people I’m not already friends with. It’s hard to talk to people I’ve only met a handful of times, hell its still hard to communicate with my moms ex boyfriends. It’s why I’ve got such an issue with eye contact. It seems rude but I sit there quietly, looking away not to be rude or disrespectful but because it’s intimidating to me. That’s the best way I can describe that feeling.

But that’s where I’m going to leave off. Comment or message me if you have experienced social anxiety, or anxiety at all. Let’s start talking 🙂


What is wrong with the world?

A story came out of the States recently, and I’d like to take a few moments and talk about it.

First of all, Rest in Peace Jamel Dunn.

Second of all, if you have not heard, there were 5 teenagers who were hanging out by a pond, when they saw 31 year old Jamel Dunn walking up to the fenced off pond. They watched as this 31 year old disabled man, walk right into the pond. And then they decided to start videotaping. They were seen mocking and laughing at Jamel as he was seen drowning. Then, they heard a scream from the background, laugh and say “he just died”

Jamel was pleading for help, all the while these guys were laughing and having a great ole time.

I can’t even begin with this. I read an article today about how the teenagers didn’t have a “legal duty” to help this man. And what is astounding to me is that, that is even a point of contention. If they had no intention on helping the man, they should have just left. How heartless do you have to be to watch someone die and laugh and joke about it at the same time? I hope the Judge presiding over the case makes an example out of these teenagers. They chose to act like adults and should be send to adult jail. Where in my opinion, they should just stay.